Emotional immaturity : did you grow up with one?

Doing research and really trying to dig into the reasons we are how we are really opens up new worlds, and shows you the endless possibilities of getting better. Once we can accept these things and try to understand them, we can then actually try to be better.

My story is quite a tough one for me and I could never ever fit it into one blog post, so within this blog you will find many many different stories and events in my life that have made me who I am , as I unravel it all , this conditioned and molded-to-others-trauma, Jasmine, to find the Real me .

I am just starting on my healing journey. So there will be lots of posts and in the beginning lots of raw stuff I say.

This entry today is about emotionally immaturity. Just sharing some really good information via screenshots (yes its a paid app, so i do share food information in these posts , where someone would otherwise have to maybe subscribe to get. )

its not to disrespect anyone or their parents, it's to actually try to HELP others who feel so lost and alone in their CPTSD fight and who are trying to understand why they feel such ways. Here's some screenshots , and I'll pit the information in comments of blog , to the app (headway) .

It also is to help us as children of this type of person, to understand that it's not our fault, and it also most certainly is NOT our parents fault either , that they are this way, its the circle. You finding out reasons behind you feel the way you do and working through your own personal shit is the only way to do this

& also, its not to blame anyone from the past. It's to move forward .

My dad spent his whole life writing. Ranting.

For me I hope to actually heal with creating a good support system and community with others fighting the same battles through this post. We DO need to get it out. For some this is therapy one on one. For some its journaling/blogging.

Remember, CPTSD ENDS WITH YOU. the things you have endured are not yours to endure, and honestly not even your parents emotional bs was theirs to endure . this is a generational thing being passed down from generation to generation due to somewhere along the line in history our feelings not mattering, and them being looked at as more bad then good.

So when I opened my Headway app yesterday to the recommended read of the day , my eyes were wide open . It was as if this was written for me. Here's some screenshots. I really hope these help you like they helped me , in putting things in perspective.

Remember , it's OK to try to understand why you were raised certain ways. Many who have CPTSD simply will not dig into it because they don't want to hurt others or bring up past shit, they feel like they love their parents and dont want to disrespect (stop looking at your healing as disrespectful or as hurting others feelings. Put that aside and for once WORRY ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS AND YOUR CHILDRENS) but all that does is KEEP US ALL STUCK THERE, UNLESS WE ACTUALLY FREE IT. you deserve closure, you deserve to find yourself.

These eplxain things so well . It helps to look at all perspectives when trying to understand why people are the way they are.

A few more good screenshots . I'll put the name of this specific book and author in blog comments .

"Having this knowledge is not in anyway to disrespect your parents; the goal is for you to gain thr self-confidence that comes from knowing the TRUTH about your own story."

💯 🔥

This is personal my parents case, both of them having no good connection with their parents or parent. So , here we are....

Finding out I'm a "internalizer" throughout this research..

What are your thoughts? Have you dealt with these types of people in your life ?

No matter what , what we all went through, know what matters is now and trying to create peace by working through it. We know burying things , denying feelings, or loading wayyy to much onto a young one , is not good for us or our kids down the line, even there kids .

We need to make a active change within our own 4 walls , to make a bigger change in society in the long run.

I love you , you got this !

A huge help ,huge help, is the Headway app and also other mental health and cognitive training apps . Also my I Am affirmations , and ofcourse journaling. It's hard for us who've endured this type of childhood to express ourselves, as we are taught to not be a burden on others etc... but you need to express yourself. No matter what, don't deny feelings . Emotions have the hugest role in our actual body and daily functions , we must learn to work with them and not against them. And we CAN do it ❤️

I am working on a community forum post which will have a list of resources of my favorite apps to download ( ive been spending time rewiring the brain rather then scrolling Facebook, which makes us even more stressed . )

Xo

Jazzy