People can really suck when they choose to.

That is all.

People can fuckin destroy good souls with their not giving a shit , and letting people suffer knowing they are the cause of it and hiding out like little bitvhes .

Sick of dealing with daily episodes again after so long , with the people in my family who could help by simply SPEAKING to these two people and telling them they don't appreciate what is happening .

It makes me realize my family , the ones I trust the most in it, wouldn't lift a damn finger for me and my mental well being, no matter how much they know I am suffering.

I am livid that even when I ask to please talk to these people , Noone fuckin will. For weeks. It's sickening . It's not about people caring at this point.

It's about respect. Common human decency which I can't find within my own bloodline , and it fucking hurts , especially because they all know how much I am hurting right now and Noone will fuckin bother to talk to me about it or try to help me understand . What assholes. Plain and simple .someone fucking attacked me drunk as fuck resparking my CPTSD episodes daily and Noone bothers to make it right. They watch me suffer instead and tell me what good people these guys are lmao.

They need to fucking speak up now. Because I am waiting. The longer they take, the worse it will be for them . I PROMISE .

All I want is to know wtf happened and I deserve that. This is disgusting how people are treating this , COVERING IT UP AND NOT TELLING THE ONE WHO NEEDS TO GROW UP, TO SPEAK. SOVKENING.

I need to accept the fact that I , or my feelings , don't mean shit to them.

And if you are one who gives your family all the answers, and they still choose to hide in silence .

CUT THEM ALL OUT OF YOUR LIFE

PEOPLE CHOOSE TO BE THESE WAYS TO US , SO WE NEED TO CHOOSE TO LOVE OURSELVES MORE THEN THEM.

People. Fucking. Suck.

God is the only one that has EVER shoem me in action that he cares about my feelings . It's why I'm where I am today . Definitely was not taught my feelings matter at all

Anyway , that is all.