The casualties of non supportive families .

Sadly, this has meant I lost my entire "family" . They do a amazingly good job of hiding ,and being quiet , the only time in life i showed the world , and them , that i REALLY do need them (or i thought i did anyway).

According to the professionals , it's so much easier (for others who are so emotionally immature , the ones who live in their "omg everything's so beautiful, never judge only CHOOSE the toxic positivity bull$%t " trend) to just post passive "don't judge" posts rather then to actually tall one time to their family member , it's so much easier to tell everyone she's just so fuc&÷d up, so much easier to tell the whole town she's just on drugs , so much easier to jus6 hide and STAY QUIET when they could have HELPED SOMEONE THEY LOVE , whi has begged any of them to give a shit about the mental situation she has been hiding , in order to make THEM ALL FEEL MORE COMFORTABLE, her entire adult life.

And that's fu%$ing stupid to me. Keep singing over me like a baby child , keep PLUGGING EARS ALSO, like my baby child does..

Keep acting like you all in my family , have not turned all your busy backs to me and zipped your lips instead of doing the one thing a fu%$ing family does: BE THERE FOR ONE ANOTHER . It's absolutely horrific to me , the inactions and head turning silence you all show SINCE I HAVE TOLD YOU ALL , AND THE WORLD, WHAT HAS REALLY BEEN GOING ON WITH ME.

It's something, that i promise , you will regret. When you love someone your there for them . It's something that as i go on in life , with the family the universe has shown me is real , that you all WILL wish you had just said one damn "Are you ok" or sucked up your egos for our relationship. It's all I've ever done is suck it up for yall, since i was a toddler.

I don't know what else to do or how else to express this hurt, other then how I do -- in writing

They won't let me talk to them in person.