The face behind CPTSD & Me

The face behind CPTSD & Me: Working through the chaos . I know we just started, but I do want to thank the ones who have emailed the blog. Please press the like or follow button here on this page as well .

I have been withholding this information about me, withholding the fact that I do have severe #ComplexPTSD , from my family and friends now for a very, very long time.

Although people around here have assumed everything under the sun , including regular PTSD, drugs, just plain crazy & out of control , way to sensitive, to "full of herself " or "self righteous" , to much like her dad .....(the things I've heard about myself, from the mouths of my own people, really blows my lid at times man lol.....and the number of chances i've given, and things i've overlooked to spare others the discomforts of facing their own actions, has definitely taken its toll, severely , on my mental health..), although the rumors have flown like hotcakes everywhere in my hometown of Puna, Hawaii..... they have never ACTUALLY SPOKEN TO ME about aby of it 🤐🤐😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️ , or genuinely ASKED ME WHATS REALLY going on without judgment or dismissals.

The thing that continues to hurt, every second, is they all still refuse to talk to me about anything, or even check in. I haven't got one actu genuine text or ANYTHING , even from the one who I thought I would, since I have actual revealed the depths of this a few weeks ago. It's so messed up!! Families are not supposed to act like this to each other. They are supposed to be there for each other, not damn run and hide , IMHO.

Look I get it , IM TOO MUCH. I mean, look at who raised me!!! 🤷 but you also have to remember I am not my dad, and I also am not my mom.

The thing is though , I need to be able to find out who i am, who Jasmine really is, instead of keeping up the charades, as everyone else surrounding her does so perfectly. I really and truly want to figure it out, for myself and my own beautiful family that I DO LOVE with all my heart and soul, Sara and Shawn.

My other family , the ones who raised me & my cousins aunties uncles etc , basically anyone surrounding me growing up, and still to this day, won't talk about things. They won't. In my actual personal life experiences, they dismiss everything they can under the sun, and I need to find actual support. It makes one realize how alone and misunderstood so many people feel .

So, I need to find the ones out there that are on their own personal healing journeys.. its why i had the need to create a platform ( which this is the Facebook page dedicated to that platform-- which is the actual blog website with community forums etc) that we all can come together in a safe place with no judgment to share resources and tips and tricks we all learn along the way and on our own healing journeys .

No dismissals allowed here, no silence and no judgements.

Just Love,, acceptance, and the FREEDOM of SELF EXPRESSION. SO please, for heavens sake, LET LOOSE XOX SHARE WHAT MOTIVATES YOU TO KEEP GOING, I'D LOVE TO HEAR IT XOX

I hope we can create lifelong friendships in here, and help one another on our paths to peace ❤️

Find my socials in the websites, search "Socials" xo

Jazzy