Today's announcement on my personal fb...my head underwater to long . #enough

It really sucks when you have to hold to something someone chose that truly hurts your soul . But you have to stand up for what's right in this life . Please never ever forget this 💯⚔️😭❤️ You have to stand up for yourself . You have to speak up, especially in huge toxic systems that you are the only one calling out shit that can't be tolerated anymore .

Just be aware , The tables will turn and everything will be your fault.

You can spell it out a damn billion times for these family members and it won't matter , you will still be going in the same circles if this is something you relate you , so you have to put a stop to it .

In my case , I felt like I had finally broke free , or so I had thought , from the gaslighting stuff, when I left my dads ..... but I'm being shown major shit the past few months (I'm seeing what he was always telling me about)

Simple fact is -- a ultimatum was given , come here for 5 fuckin minutes and YES, have the dumb a$$ EXPLAIN HIMSELF, because he can shove the "I didn't blah blah" straight up his ass, AND TELL ME (REASSURE THE PERSON W SEVERE EPISODES SINCE ATTACK) THAT ITS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN AGAIN , or loose your relationship with me . It's that simple . It honestly would help EVERYONE , because people NEED to be held accountable when they do really fucked up shit like that on your property, yet it's soooooo damn hard, which I will never, ever understand.

immediately the answer was chosen , when I clearly stated the ultimatum (which I have never ever done before , because i will have to hold myself also to it-- it's called self respect yeah.) with the immediate bullshit "he says he didn't do it" .

So. WHAT THE FUCK. You literally chose him and you know you did. Let's grow up and know we have voices , and that we've been waiting now for months and months and it's a simple 5 minute talk like adults WITHOUT SCREAMING, and do what needs to be done for this to pass . Because the BS back and forth texts does nothing when i waste so much of my breath and you won't acknowledge anything I say ( and just say I'm blaming etc-- when I'm speaking the truth if what happened lol it's just the truth, you can say it's blame when you feel guilty but it doesn't erase the fact that it's the truth.) so there's no point. Only thing to do is be here like a adult , so you me Lee and Shawn can speak, as we have asked you now for 4 months (since your woofer attacked and you won't make him apologize to your kid), or don't say one word to me please. As I already have told you a million times.

The comments and weird gaslighting stuff acting like you've tried everything when you haven't even tried the one only thing that I have asked , doesn't work because everyone has seen now for months me begging for anyone to give a fuck and show compassion. They see this is fucked up man. So , to come comment "he didn't do it" is fucking bullshit and it's fucking insulting .

You are hurting me doing this shit so I have to let you go . All my life I have adjusted for you and your "oh wells" . Now it's time for you to do what's right.

My story has never changed , Shawn has clearly explained what happened and that he kept having to get this person physically to back the heck up off of me spitting in face closed fists etc to knock me out screaming how I better get Shawn out here "or else" etc etc (when Shawn's right there 😬🤯 the cover ups are fukin royal here man) ..

And yet.. all these months later , still being dragged along with the "he said he didn't do it" infuriating dumb shit as if we are just for some idiotic reason making this all up , instead of coming in person and seeing that you are being played by Lee extremely with that straight up LIE.

ENOUGH WITH THE BULLSHIT . Yes this IS public because I have begged you and explained thoroughly and asked you all of the same exact shit for months and months . You don't read anything I say , or seemingly want to be a light or a part of this healing , or we wouldn't still be doing this . I am now worth it, and am never accepting this shit treatment again . If people think I am worth it to, they will fuckin show me in actions . I mean even your friends tell ME how messed up it is!! They should be telling you this , not agreeing with me unless they are going to talk to their friend.

I now have to stick by my words and decisions , because this year is dedicated to #HEALTH , mental and physical, so I can't allow myself to be a part of this anymore . I also can't ever explain myself like this again , so this will be the actual final time I do, I have to because I did need to be reassured , and it ain't seemingly happening, so I now have to figure out my life choices as far as where to go from here .

I now back my words with actions , and be aware , I am kicking butt in this , it's only the beginning of the year .

I am a thousand percent, DONE WITH IT .

For. Ever.

#cptsdawareness #cptsdwarrior #peopleneedtobeheldaccountable #shitsgonetoofar #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthmatters #stopTHEHEADTURNING #STOPTHEENABLING #breakfree #redemptionsong #loveyourselfenoughtostoptheenabling

Ps - starting this new year right with "No Narcissist Boot Camp" on fb . It's free , and amazing already . You should join too. Today is our first workbook activity (see image below) . I also am accepted into #EMDR therapy in the next town for #cptsdrecovery .

I truly hope that seeing someone stand up for themselves , brings strength to someone else who needs it. This life is to short. Don't waste it getting stomped on just because others refuse to do what's right and/or face reality.

You matter now.

2023 is your time to #HEAL