Working through the chaos ... dealing with TRUST and C-PTSD

Hey guys, its me again 🙏⚘️😭🖤

☆☆ Warning. This is a cptsd rant ( from my FB blog page https://www.facebook.com/CPTSDBlogger?mibextid=ZbWKwL ). Having a really hard time with my " family " and their refusal to speak to me for 5 minutes after a physical attack end of last year, its causing me to have insane episodes. ☆☆

Ahh. Hitting that "snooze" button on the certain few people that make my heart hurt so excruciatingly in my family 24/7 , never has felt so good . Can't unfriend certain people , but the hurt is to real and they don't care AT ALL, LITERALLY , to try to make things right, so I have to erase them and I don't know how . Never want to see their posts , their enabling bs behind their smiles, none if it .

I need to distance as far as I can , until somehow I can heal , so I can stop having to use my only one way of getting stuff off my chest -- FB -- and honestly , once I heal, I will never let this type of enabling and behavior back in again , so i guess it really hurts because they KNOW they are loosing me FOR GOOD, as a family member, in real time, yet dont give a f.. as long as they stay busy enough , they dont have to actually FEEL ANYTHING and WORK THROUGH it..

So hey, its just #cowardly I realize, how they all enable and run and deflect and act like nothings haooening ir they dont vave the power to CHANGE things. I have been so stressed and on edge most of my life. That I'm now finally trying to work through it all , and break free, so it does require certain things like CALLING OUT THE BS , including WITH MYSELF AS WELL .

If there's ever anything you want to know. ask me. Use your voice . Don't be a coward and believe LIES they spread without speaking to me as well.

"IGNORANCE IS NOT BLISS IF YOU CAN SOLVE THE PROBLEM "

With all this being said , I think it's a good time to share a good article I found , regarding TRUST and CPTSD :

" ℹ️🌿 HOW COMPLEX TRAUMA SURVIVORS CAN LEARN TO TRUST PEOPLE ~ LILLY HOPE LUCARIO |

Complex trauma is ongoing or repeated inter-personal trauma – abuse and neglect – caused by other people. Often this ongoing abuse causes Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and/or Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

Trust issues are one of the debilitating and life impacting results of enduring complex trauma. It’s very understandable, when you consider the survivor has been subjected to ongoing harm, particularly when from those they were meant to be able to trust, rely on and feel safe with. "

"Complex trauma survivors need to know they deserve and do need healthy trusting safe relationships and how to achieve that."

Read more

https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2019/07/28/how-complex-trauma-survivors-can-learn-to-trust-people-lilly-hope-lucario/

-- via CPTSD Foundation dot org 🖤⚘️🖤⚘️🖤🦋

I do want to be able to put this behind me . But morally/ ethically it is something I will NEVER ACCEPT , NOR WOULD I EVER HAVE MY DAUGHTER ACCEPT . This is physical abuse , and you don't get rewarded for it . You have to face what you do . Trust is obliterated with my mom , and Lee, who have been noting lying and covering this up for a half year instead of putting on their big girl and boy panties on and speaking to me for 5 minutes . Lame asses .

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